my heart is bursting with love
knowing nowhere but everywhere to go
the blood keeps pouring out of it
and I realize
this will be the end of me
more than likely
I'm already dead
recapturing my life
just to see
it was never mine
still
I get to magically experience
this moment
forever
and
knowing it is my last
I savour it
so much pain and beauty
too much
far too much
and just enough
love will be the end of me
It's not the fall that hurts.
It's getting ripped away
from that you try so hard to hold on to,
before you fall free.
I'm heading nowhere
and I go there slow
I believe in nothing
that I know
nothing is present
that is me
all that is to it
is to be
savour the moment
while it is
then let it go
it's God's kiss
not for me
to keep or to hold
the things that you lose
are the real gold
Check in with Silence
every now and then
Remember who you are
It is always here
within your reach
You never need go far
Make a habit to
remind yourself
of that you will forget
Trying and trying
to get some more
but really nothing's here to get
Struggling so hard with
what is and not,
makes you tired to the bone
Fearing the feeling,
that drives you mad,
being so utterly alone
Forgetting yourself
may have the sweetest taste
for an exhilarating while
Distracting yourself
from the pain you create
you keep building up a pile
But eventually
the point is reached
where it was clearly all in vain
And no amount
of sweetest sweet
can really help you from the pain
Check in with Silence
Do it Now!
Rediscover who you are
It is always here
and within reach
You never need go far
The Silence's always
here with you
no matter that you fall
All there ever was
was You and lust
to experience it All
The ubiquitous nature of Truth is more than the mind can grasp.
But it won’t stop it from
trying,
distorting,
wanting,
fearing,
dismissing,
worrying,
pretending,
problematizing,
rejecting,
desiring,
distracting,
postponing,
restricting,
fantasizing,
ridiculing,
explaining,
doubting,
hating,
praising,
limiting,
denying,
confusing,
romanticizing,
resisting
or believing in it.
Meanwhile the Truth is simply ever here everywhere.
At the terminus.
This is where we all get off
and find a new way.
In this crowded place
you can easily feel lost,
but not to worry.
There comes a bus soon,
destined for that magic place
it will take you to.
At the terminus
some people say 'this is it'
and lay their bags down.
Some run stressed around
so desperate in their minds
looking for a sign.
But maybe there's more
to this journey than conceived
It takes us nowhere.
every moment
so fresh
clean
uncontaminated
until we
drag in the filth
of the past
and the future
completely ruining
it
incapable of
appreciating
the beauty
of now
It’s not a place
it is the space
that nothing can survive
It is a place of death and darkness,
also life and light
Now all of it merges
into the emptiness from where it came
Nothing can hide now
Now can be no lies
It is the end of me
and it’s the end of you
and the end of our relation
It was just a vivid dream
Sooner or later,
I’d say Now,
we’re all gonna die
It may take us ages
It don’t matter for how long
For time’s just one of all concepts
in the Now it’s gone
It has gone to die
Even the great liberation
that lies within
the death of all the things
that ever meant something
Even that will die
and doesn’t mean a thing
(for Jivanna)
then we kiss
then we disappear
(thousands of years of no time at all go by)
and finally
I open my eyes
and I see
this wonderful creature
before me
and the only thing I know
is that I love her
and
then we kiss
Once I thought I knew you, you had become an absolute stranger to me.
The image of you that I kept in my mind was invalid the moment it was created. Yet I kept it and tried to live a life with it. You I forgot about. Except for som joyful moments when you managed to shine through, you were hidden behind that image. An image that somehow started to fabricate a life of it's own. Weaving a story that made it look alive. That made it plausible enough for me to let it pass as you. Although, all the time I really knew: I don't know you. I never have. I never will. And as soon as I stop pretending we can meet again. What's holding me?
Once you think you know someone, you've really lost that knowing.
Are you the captain of your ship?
Whatever gave you the idea to pretend not to be?
One heart. Infinite love.
No need for rationing.
No limit.
The love has no direction.
It radiates from me
like beams of light from the sun.
Let the love rays flow through you
and trigger a chain reaction
in the core of you
so that love can radiate
from you too.
Or
let it be gone.
There's no keeping it.
No need to protect it.
No need to protect from it.
No use fearing it.
It fears nothing.
It's here for you
whether you want it or not.
As a matter of fact
you are it.
It's you.
The infinite Love of the One heart.
There is a difference between letting go and leaving.
Leaving creates distance between you and what you leave. A distance that eventually must be closed for you to be complete.
In letting go on the other hand, you become the space for that which is let go.
The difference is profound.
Knee deep in the mud.
Feeling rather heavy, aching and closed.
Gone is the light and the joy.
Almost.
Hiding deep inside,
an eternal burning spark of love
that wants this too
to be felt, lived, loved.
That spark must die,
or I.
